Hey there everyone and anyone who is interested in reading about me and my life. Today I received two emails asking me those questions about "who you are". It is funny when answering them I tend to find myself making sure I answer them "right". "Why?" you ask? Because I don't want people thinking that when I answer "What is your favorite food" and I answer "everything", people who are reading it say, "Well no wonder she can't lose weight, she eats everything". Now why would I think like that? Because society has taught to be concerned about what everybody thinks. That is why we are always trying to keep up with the Joneses, even when we say we don't. Because deep down inside we all want to be accepted and not looked upon as different. I have been struggling with this concept for all the 35 years of my life and now I struggle the same concept with my children. Joseph, who is in 6th grade and dealing with the preteen years, soon to be a teenager in October, deals with the HEIGHT issue. We all know that I am short, 4feet 7 and 3/4 inches to be exact, but every time we go for his annual check-up the HEIGHT issues comes up. Isn't that sad? That's because society graces our magazines and movies and TV shows with "normal" people, people like me and my son are considered "below average". Now why would we want us to think that anyone is below average. Even if the statistics prove that Joe and I are below the average in height, it's one thing to record it but then to label, how cruel. Anyway, Joseph, I don't worry to much about, he has a strong personality and everyone likes him. He is self-confident in his abilities and talents, and the height question comes up often, but he has learned to deal with it. I want to take the time to express to my family and friends a warm thank you for showing my son that it is what is on the inside not outside that counts. Now if only we could spread this thought to all. I hear parents say that all the time to their kids, but why then do the kids still poke fun? Because it is one thing to say it , but to live it is another. I live it each and every day, not just for me and my kids, but for all the children in this world. I try to not judge by what the child looks like, but for what he/she shows me, because what he/she exhibits is who he is.

So now that I have climbed off my soapbox and am back to my 4 feet 7 and 3/4 inches ...

This month of January has been hectic, still is. As most of you know, my husband and his brother own a business together, a photography business. A business that was started by my wonderful father-in-law and my mother-in-law. A business that has a well known name and wonderful reputation ( I am not biased I promise this is what people tell me all the time). Anyway way, we started out the month with my husband taking a 10day online course in hopes to get his degree by the end of the 2007 calender year ( his schooling has been 13 years in the making). His thoughts were to work from our home office. He figured he would be able to take his course and work via email. well, that is exactly what he did. He would be working until the deadline hour,12am, almost every night. He is very dedicated and committed to finishing his degree, We, the kids and I, are very PROUD and looking forward to throwing him the grandest party when he finishes!!!!! Along with his class, the first weekend of the month there was a two day Bridal trade show that we had to attend. Then he left for TX the second weekend in January for a 5 day conference. In the fourth weekend he will be attending a wedding in NC and then rushing back for another important bridal event that we have to attend,as a business. This month has flown by. The stress is high, but we all try to keep it in perspective. The kids are great!!! They love and understand that the work we do is for them. I never understood the concept "You always want more for your kids than you had", until I had kids. I watched my mom struggle as a single mom, to always give us more. She was and is amazing. I've watched the pride in my father-in-laws eyes as he sees that his kids have more. I want that too. I want more for my kids. I want to feel that pride. I want them to feel that pride. It is not only my pride but theirs as well, as everything that is accomplished in our lives, we all did it together. Ed and I stress that with our kids. We tell them, that everything we have and do is because we all did it TOGETHER!!! They appreciate it more and we all appreciate our time together more.

GEEZ ... I truly enjoy the soapbox.

Post number two, so far so good. I think I am gonna like this. Hope you all do too.

Again to all my family and friends, lots of love and kisses!!!

Fania: always there baby
Christy: meant to be
Susanne: do it for love
Cindy: reach for the stars
Cam: miss the late night head rubs and talks
Danielle: a lifetime of friendship awaits
Mommy: thanks for the lessons ... ti amo

Ed: LOVE ya lots, this moth has been tough, missed you lots when you went away
Joseph: my right hand man
Kyle: you are the one
Julianna: keep smiling
Robbie: PEACE

Till next time ...

The Begining

Well, this is new for me, but it seems this the way to record and be remembered. The old way used to be in a diary and we all know that doesn't work, because that's where secrets can be found and used against you. Haa haa haa. Anyway, journaling that is the thing,however finding the time to do it is also the challenge...so what makes me think this will work? I don't know but if I don't give it a try then I can't really comment ... so here goes folks ...

My life, what a life it is. I am happy, yes very happy. I have wonderful, healthy, smart, adorable, loving kids. Four to be exact, three boys and one girl. She is the queen of our family. She will and DOES rule the world. Days are hectic and sometimes stressful, full of joy and then sometimes sadness, but that is what makes life so happy for me. I wouldn't change it for anything. I have a wonderful husband. He is my best friend, my soulmate (yes I believe in soulmates) and my partner on this journey we all call life. So am I boring you yet? Let's go on. I have a great sister, who is by far the best any sister could ask for ( I guess I have to say this or she won't babysit again, hee), truly she is my best friend and I can't a day withour talking to her, even if she or I are pissy. My day feels weird if I don't get to chat with her. I can tell her almost anything (there are things that no one knows but me) BUT she pretty much knows EVERYTHING!!! Then there is my mom, one word ... INSPIRATIONAL!! She is who I want to be when I grow up ( and I am already 35 going on 36 in May). I feel sometimes that I can never live up to her and how much she has and continues to accomplish. She is the SUPERWOMAN. It's funny my husband calls me supermom, but I can't compare to my mom. She endured so much, and she has come out on top. Yes, my life is different, but the strength she has is amazing. I take notes everyday and try to live my life on strength, courage and love, just as she has.

Any, this is the beginning and I will try to keep up. This will be my new year's resolution along with the others, see below:

Suby's New Year's Resolution
1. LOSE WEIGHT (been trying to for 13 years ever since baby number one, now baby number four is 1 years old and no more babies in the cards, I have to buckle down and lose all the baby weight)
2. Spend more time with each of the kids individually and my hubby (as partners and not co-workers)
3. Keep better communication with friends (Cam you are the best, Susanne LOVE you, Cindy my girl, Danielle forever there, Christy sisters, Fania speechless)
4. Write this blog
5. Truly try to keep the above four.

Thanks for reading and remember, make your life happy becuase you only have one chance.

PS Next time I will include photos, got figure this out first.

PSS Fania, thanks for the idea, sorry for copying, and love ya lots.

PSSS Eddie, Happy 14th Anniversary